I remember back in college (oh so long ago), a professor had us read the book Brave New World and then write a term paper on if we thought our world was civilized or not. I won’t go into details about my opinion or writings; however, I will tell you I got an A in the class. I am not sure why, but I was thinking about that paper this morning around 2 AM. Perhaps it is because I am about to embark upon my own brave new world.
The realization has set in that it will be a while before Greg, my business partner for over 27 years, is back to work. I have spent the last 6 weeks trying to burn the candle at both ends and be everything to everyone, but I feel like I am falling short. Inside I am on the verge of a complete emotional breakdown. My husband is off in Patagonia for 17 days and I am all alone (well, not really I have Grayson, Matt and Eva) struggling to keep myself composed. I “disappointed” and let down a friend, broker, at the office and I spent all night stressing about how to make him feel better. I feel like curling up in a corner, yet I realize I can’t people need me.
No interim leader can take Greg’s place or our incredible friendship. But, I do believe we have found someone that will be a new friend. Greg has laid an incredible foundation! I am going to be brave and trust that I am headed down the right path. I wish I could tell each and every person at the office just how much I need them and how much they mean to me. My new world will not be rewarding without them. I hope they trust me enough to know, I have their back.